Im mental crack.

At least to some. Intrigueing the senses, and challenging the mind and will of those around Me. More accurately, those who arent near Me. Even with admittance of a little girl I find Myself in delemmas.

*opens a card from a long distance friend congradulating Me on My subbie girl* Awwwww..... its a farside card....

As much as I dont want to be the Pied piper of people, I am anyway. They all understand how I feel, but....I dunno..... I should feel blessed people like me out there. I spent most of My life alone, with few friends I should feel grateful, but Im feeling guilty instead. Like I played games or something, even when I know I havent. The worlds going to hell....

A sadist with a concience....

I really only enjoy suffering, or teasing those who either deserve it immensely.....or beg for it. Im picky, choosey....and thourough in My attempts. "merp" o_o However....

Gay men hitting on Me.... and all the other drama Ive been experienced in, hasnt gone by without Me learning some important lessons.

One: If gay Men like Me I cant be that ugly, or....they arent that picky.

Two: people like Me for a reason, I just cant figure out what that reason is (modesty) or Im in denial.

Three: Men do get better with age, like fine wines. Im uncorked and ready for your drinking pleasure... o_o

Four: I have mind control, or the effect of herion on the mind.

In any case......I need a warning label:

"can be highly addictive. Contact at own risk, enjoy the ride, sucker......"