This is my first entry on my new computer. One would think I would be overjoyed, and a few days ago I was. But something more poignant took place today. Somehow a friendship....has dissolved. No answers why, nothing was said to me directly, but through the grapevine people look to me for reasons why, and I have none to give. But I know Im probably the one to blame. They didnt have to say why they were leaving.... the act alone spoke volumes. And Im upset, and feeling pretty shitty right now.