I also cant believe the things that have happened as time has passed.

Measuring the things which I have gained, or lost is pretty hard to do. Friends which have come and gone. Those are the hardest losses. Circumstances changing things, missed oppertunities. Yeah, Ive been down that road before.

Its been real hard the past few days. Shut in, nothing to do.....no one to talk to, and long days of work to look forward to. Yes, look forward to, as it gets Me out of the house and I can forget things for a little while. Was at the mall yesterday doing pickups. Damn, I was born too early. The girls today are so much prettier, and "maybe" nicer than when I was growing up. I could be wrong too.....

Everything is relative. Viewed diffrently by those in differing circumstances. There was a young guy, maybe 17 lurking around with a girl. She was on a break, he was in street clothes. By the way he carried himself, the way he walked he must have really thought highly of himself. All I saw was a skinny, punk kid with a chip on his shoulder. That arrogant, immature way I remmeber kids I was with growing up had. Just the styles are diffrent now. The society more accepting of certain behviors.

I wanted to snap his neck.

I am well aware I have alot of unresolved issues......

o_o Go ahead, laugh at me....

I even offered to cripple the dentist of a girl who told me he flirts with her, and she finds him creepy. Free public service? Jealousy? Anger management through progressive violence therapy?

Frankly I think it was unprofessional, and he should focus on teeth, not tits.

Thats My job...

But I do have issues. Admitting there is a problem they say is the first step to healing, and wellness. I masterbate alot. Is it a problem? No. Good, cuz if someone tells me it is, they will have a problem.

Im bored.

My computer is shitting on me, via error messages and keeps shutting down My music programs.....

I have nothing but problems with this thing. Mainly software. The only real non functioning parts are the cooling fans, and the optical drives. I have a cooling pad on it, so I dont worry about overheating.

Most of the problems start when I look at porn. They say its free but it fucks your computer. Bastards.

Any advice will be greatly appreciated. So would porn. Or dirty emails. Those are cool too. So are stories.....

I did say I was bored.

Time to organize My socks....

*sniff* dirty....

*sniff,sniff* more dirty....