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le-fart - 2006-09-28 14:53:08
No, it�s not because of you, it�s as if my old boyfriend is telling me to not get a new one. So I�m fighting. I don�t mind that thing where you think you have nothing, haha, I think that�s so funny, I mean I like it! But then I didn�t get it. Why did you say it�s my decision? Why did you tell me that? What did you say? I feel that you leave me with this decision alone, I don�t like that. Can�t you just influence me to be with you? I don�t like it that you are always so much backing off and leaving your hands out, being neutral...or something. Or is there no other way? Sigh, I don�t know what�s going on. I mean I KNOW that it�s my decision. So why did you mention that? I think that was stupid. OK, I don�t know. At first I did think I was bothered cause you, or cause the decision is left up to me. But now I think that�s funny. I mean, it�s not my decision from another perspective either. It�s like God�s decision. It�s not only what I want. You look great, but your character is odd. There�s also many things I hate. So how is it my decision only? Do you think I don�t have to try hard with you? If it were easy, if you were easy to love, if it was all up to me, then why would I falter? It�s not my decision at all, it�s just the right thing to do. You should see that! If that�s possible...
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Sasha - 2006-10-03 04:35:13
You've had love. You've got opportunity. You managed to go to school, become a commerical diver, something which you seem passionate about. Every time I tried to better myself, I got shot down. The persons which I fell in love with, never loved me back. I've tried to commit suicide 3 times now. The first time was pills and I didn't take enough. The second time was razors and someone found me. This last time I tried carbon monoxide, and again, someone found me. It never ends for me. And then I read you... so damn lucky I could cry, and always always always talking about what you DON'T have. But have you REALLY seen what you DO??? The honest answer is probably not... because so many don't. I didn't mean to attack you... then or now. I guess I just like you and hate to see the complaints when you're so much luckier than I am. I'm so ashamed of who I am... of the scars on my wrists and arms and heart... you're so normal and lucky next to me. If I had a fraction of what you have... bills, worry and all... I'd be happy. I'm sure I would... I know I would...
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