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King Zulu - 2005-08-06 07:26:48
Really? It bothers you when I don�t say good bye?
Yeah,well,ok,then I should do that.
I�m like exhausted with caring.
It�s clear to me that I come back tomorrow,so I think yeah whatever.
You know,I always think it doesn�t do anything.
I also think my love doesn�t do anything anyway,I guess.
Like,WHY does it bother you?
That would be interesting.
I�m always thinking,I�m like so sure that you don�t care what I say anyway,that you don�t take it for real.
I mean,that could be my very own perception,and has nothing to do with you.
Well,I think bottom line is:I don�t mind doing things for you you like,but you have to say it explicitly,it�s just,even now when you kind of say it,I�m thinking:pff,he doesn�t mean it.
He isn�t sure of what he wants and needs.
I mean,I don�t know,it just doesn�t seem necessary to talk to you in person.
You know,I mean,if you want something then you change something about it,you know,tell me,but the problem is also that I really don�t believe you anything!
Also now when you say that,I think:yeah,whatever,he is just kind of having a thought-you know,it seems temporary.
It wouldn�t be a problem to tell you good bye or good night,but:your plead doesn�t sound real to me,you know?
It seems unnecessary to me-and you also don�t-I don�t feel you at all.
I don�t feel you.
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King Zulu - 2005-08-06 07:31:00
And why do I bother talking to you.........yeah,well,that�s a surprise for me,but,it turns out,it looks like to me:It IS your penis.And stuff.
Like,the thought of it comforts me so much,you know.
It�s like the one thing that lifts me up,you know,that makes me de-angry-fy.
Uhm.
That comforts me and makes things up to me,you know?
Maybe you could talk about that thing more.
From what it looks like to me now,it is that what I want,that is the reason why I like you,it seems like.
Weird,huh.
I also thought it�d be something more sophisticated.
But apparently,not.
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