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addie - 2005-06-21 19:00:46
i know what you mean. Yeah, i used to have people i called Mine, because they were. to protect and teach and do with as i wished, so long as no boundaries were overstepped. For me, owning people was like a safety net, for not only did i support them, but they eagerly did so in return. it was a trust i have not found elsewhere.
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Hope - 2005-06-22 01:39:00
wow. you are the shit! I thought about this while I was babysitting today.. (of course I was too busy to actually sit and ponder it though).. but I do ponder things like this quite often. not just ponder. I actually use it in my life. simply what you have just now said will affect the way I go about my friendships. It's alot because I just don't know how too act. and I worry too much.. this is gonna be a long comment.. I have felt as a follower to my friend(s?). I want to follow in the best way possible. ..but I just don't think I'm doing it right. ..I just. I think I need guidance. ..I don't know if I should ask of it from whome I follow, or from someone other. You strike me as quite the person to ask.. I'm asking you.. .. will you talk to me? please.
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Huz - 2005-06-22 09:17:13
Oh! Just read half of it,but want to say right away:No,no,no trust!!!!! No,no,there is not trust involved. I think you should try it with leaving the trust out! To me trust means closing one�s eyes. What I understand of leading and military,you know,to me it�s similar like in church,when the priest says one thing,then the crowd answers. Or like in a rock concert. In a concert,the band on stage,the lead singer is also controlling the energy. Right? But there is no trust necessary-you can leave the concert whenever you want. In the military you follow the orders,you know,just out of technical reasons...it has nothing to with feelings,it�s more like a sport. Or,in sport,there you also follow rules and guidelines,right? But it has nothing to do with trust,and commitment... I assume people,partner,friends,are committed to each other out of love,you know,because they want to,but,that doesn�t have to mean that they like no everything the other person does,right? You can still critize one another,that doesn�t mean you don�t wanna stay together,right? So-anyway,bottom line is:I don�t think trust is necessary. To me,I don�t need people to trust me,cause I know that they are smart,and when I got something useful to say,then I know they will pick it up just like that-not cause I make them to(not that I knew how),but just because everyone is smart and a learner,and everybody wants to know,everyone is a little curious. So-anyone,no trust needed,I totally rely on your intelligence and curiosity and stuff. I really don�t think you�re stupid,you know,I do believe you are getting what I say. Really. I mean,as we see,I also just need time to explain my thoughts right,cause I�m so hectic. It�s really not necessary at all to follow me blindly. Of course,if you feel like you�re in a safe place,then of course you can kind of let go,and trust me,I mean,but it�s no time limit here,ok? I don�t need trust to feel better about myself or happier,so it really doen�t matter when and if that begins...it�s really totally your thing,I relaly don�t need anyone to trust me. I just wanna kind of be a servant with my knowledge,you know. Also to the other people. They can just take out the fruit basket whatever they like,you know...I really don�t have a personal problem with people not believing me. I just had the problem,but it�s getting better now,that I couldn�t explain myself right. You know like I�m so hectic. I don�t need your trust-I mean,the thing is also that I don�t rellayk now who you are completly,you know that best,you are the expert with you,right? So,I mean,maybe stuff that�s right for me,could still be wrong or misleading for you,who knows,cause,you work differnetly,other soul,other goals,you know. You know,the advice I give really depends on what the other one wants,what their goal is-and that is sometimes the hardest thing to find out!! And if you don�t know what the other one wants,then you can�t help them anyway....so-I dunno. I guess I know things-but people also have to pose the exact rigth questions to me,so they get a useful answer. Like,I can�t help anyone who doesn�t tell me what they want,what their goal in life is. Some want money,some love,some popularity...I suppose,I don�t know,I just know me and what I like. So-anyway-what I want from you is not to trust me,but rather to ask me questions that you also really want to be answered. You know? Then the whole trust thing falls away anyway,cause then you are on control of this,when you are asking the questions. Right? I�ll explain you what I like about military and orders-but it has to do more with sports,I guess,or,like within a chess game,I thought today:On a chess board,you are my king! Hihi,yes,well,true. The king needs to be protected. OK,so long,see you! You under-water-plant-eyes. Makes no sense again,huh? Sorry.Just means I like you the same way I like waterplants,and that is mucho!
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