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9:27 p.m. - 2004-08-01 Im going to vent, and describe as best I can....the state of affairs that is GOG's mind....Its been described to Me, and I openly admit that when I find something I want, I go all out for it. Love is no diffrent. I love very, very deeply. And to be honest its scared away alot of would be girlfriends. Tonight I do believe I put My foot in My mouth, or said things I should have kept to Myself. But.... I also believe in disclosure, and being honest. So if Im going to be damned, I will be done so in My own way, My own terms and for who I am.... I know I can be quite emotional at times..... erratic and quick to act. But My actions are also based in part to conservative, cautious thinking. Actions I take are always done so with the best of intentions. But as its been said the road to hell was paved with good intentions.... I have alot of options laid out before Me. Unfinished tasks. Avenues I might travel. Happiness to Me is achieved through small miracles, and small pleasures many take for granted. I in my small wisdom try to take steps to facilitate oppertunities. Sometimes in My zeal to do good things....I forget My actions m-i-g-h-t not appeal to other people. For that, I am sorry. Recent events were partially to blame for My flighty dreams. But I know better....and I need to think things through more. And Ive come to some decisions. 1. I will stay in NY long enough to take the NYPD exam. If I make it I might stay in NY to see how it goes. If I dont make it.....we will go to step two... 2. I will take steps to make a life out of NY. Work, room and board. I owe it to Myself to at least see a promise I made to the NYPD to at least try and succeed. Its something I need to do. There is more I needed to say, but true to My nature I forgot what I wanted to write. Im sure more will be added later.
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