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3:42 p.m. - 2004-07-31 life can be a letdown...you work yourself up into a frenzy, preparing for some great thing. Its all you dream about, and live for. Then your in heaven. Everything else pales in comparison. Everything is a letdown. And you hate your life. I miss her. And there is nothing I can do right now to stop feeling this way. Despite the ongoing efforts to make change, change doesnt happen overnight. And I also dont want to get too dramatic, or over the top. But I do speak from the heart in all things. No sugar coating. No preservatives. I look outside the window and its diffrent. Food has lost its taste. The smells are diffrent. I feel detached. Am I making a big deal out of nothing? Over emphasising details I find dire? I dont know... Im scared. Uncertainty is an ugly thing. It makes me seem selfish, and unreliable. I cant stop talking about it. Does that make it sound less important? Makes Me seem more overanalytical? Not much hapens in My life. SO when I find something I truly believe in, I cant shut up..... I just hope My conviction doesnt make the thing I want most go away.
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