"d"- 2004-03-12 23:46:27

fuck this blog fuck the sicko who wrote this

interesting comment......truely.

I write about dreams, and its called sick. Where is the basis for comparison? Where is ones morality level forged that they believe someones inner most thoughts are worthy of such.......charming words.

I wont let it bother me this time.

Plans for StPatricks Day are in hand. If My ankle cooperates I can hobble around manhatten and maybe visit a pub or three for some guiness, and some drunken irish singing. Where else can you see thousands of men in skirts, eh?

SOme things I have been reading have really been hitting home for me. And for once, I can see the other side of the fence, because we all know not all things which could be said, are. Especially in a relationship. Points of view are important to see why people think and react the way they do. Im not forgetting the rational methods of thinking, or My explanation on why people make the choices they do. But if you read between the lines often enough, see something fail often enough a pattern begins to form. The "why" begins to become clearer. It also answers some of the questions we might not have gotten adequate information on to satisfy our curious minds.

On a diffrent note...

Ive been asked before:

"have you ever dated anyone online?"

Why yes....yes I have. And I will tell you why I have.

The internet is that wonderous place without boundaries. Where we can reach out and meet new people who were once closed off to us by distance, and invisible borders. It used to be that we would try our luck in the waters nearest our homes. Bars. Restaurants. Clubs. Church. The line in the quickie mart when your buying that midnight burrito. Dont forget breathmints their casanova.

I have been fortunate enough to meet some of the most interesting people online. No other place so open would have allowed such communication to take place. And in such far away places. For once...I was able to finally meet like minded indeviduals, who were unafraid to speak to Me, and I didnt have to feel the shyness of real face to face communication. Our imagination takes over, and its a refreshing experience. Could be why I am on this thing every chance I get. I admit it, Im addicted. But for good reason. I can play games in real time, speak My mind with countless others, and shop for those special little things we all need. Like fuzzy handcuffs, or stickers that say "dont annoy the crazy person" for our cars.

Now for the good stuff. Where else can you beat the odds at finding someone so like yourself, with the same interests, same goals, same sick, twisted desires that you fall hopelessly in love with them? Other than a cult....no where. College Ive heard is great, but its all peer pressure. There isnt any online. But one thing the internet doesnt give you, not like face to face contact.

Emotions

Not like its a black hole void of any, but its a place misunderstandings are a way of life. Things we type, might not be taken the way they were intended. And feelings can be hurt, and loves lost, friends lost. Makes you think twice before hiting the "enter" button. DOnt it...

There might be those I will never get to see in My life. Friends, and the like I have made along My travels on wires. But that doesnt mean I dont care for them any less than My real life friends. Because to me, they are My real life friends. They mean as much to Me as My parents do. And I know when they are gone. When they dont say hello. It hurts just the same.

Okay, Im getting mushy here.......dammit to hell...

I could say more.....but I think I used up all My remaining braincells for the evening. And sleep calls. Night night.