Some of My ebay treasures arrived. I went to see LOTR on xmas eve, so I was able to shut out the world for a few hours and enjoy Myself. Good movie.

Work is cutting hours as expected, and I wont know what to do with Myself on My 3 days off with less money o_o

I said to someone the other night, Im in an emotional numb right now. Some would think it wonderful, to not feel anything. But its not a complete numb. Its coldness, broken with moments of sharp stabbing. Nothing interests me right now, and I cant settle on ideas at all. So in a way Im listless in a sea of boredom. Emotional segregation isnt always a good thing. I know some things, material objects which would make Me "happier" but wouldnt solve the dilemmas I have. Complex thoughts require more effort than usual. Im cooped up. Bored, and restless. Perhaps its depression.

I didnt get anything for christmas, and I didnt expect to. Money, and belief coincided this time. Just another day folks.....

I bought a book, but everything in it I already knew on some subconcious level. They didnt have anything I wanted there. Book stores, good ones are hard to find. Libraries just dont always have the books I crave either.